A Bump in the Road

I hit a bump in the road the last couple of weeks. I went almost completely off of my eating program and gave into the stress/emotional eating that comes with a stressful, emotional time. Two weeks in a row, I ended up with a gain on weigh-in day. *sigh* Well, I decided that enough is enough, dammit. So, I weighed in on Wednesday and I recommitted myself to eating on program, to getting my exercise in, to drinking my water and to journaling when I got an urge to eat out of stress or emotion (including boredom). So far, so good. Our issues with the Y should be straightened out now, so I'm going to recommit to going to the gym 4 days/week. I plan to lift weights or take a Pilates class 2 of those days, which will mean a shorter cardio workout, but I still think that's a good workout regimen. If I do an hour of cardio 2 days a week, and do 30 minutes each of cardio and resistance the other two days, and do a simple workout @ home on the weekends, and walk my hour on Thursdays before I come in to work, I think that should be more than enough exercise for a non-athlete. :-)

I finally went to my doctor about the insomnia/migraines/breathing issues. He tested me for asthma based on my symptoms, but I have only exercise-induced asthma. I have an inhaler that I'm supposed to keep with me when I work out so that I can continue working out. :-) He thinks that the migraines are triggered by sleep deprivation, so we are concentrating on the insomnia right now. He said that, if we get the insomnia under control and I continue to have migraines with the frequency that I have been, that we'll re-visit that issue and try to attack it from another angle. The med that he has me on for insomnia is also prescribed as a migraine preventative and to help with anxiety, so I'm hoping that it will help with all three, since they are all issues. I do think that it's helping with the insomnia, as I'm only waking up a couple of times rather than the 4-5 times I was.

It is official, however... I've now lost enough weight that I need to buy new bras. *sigh* I hate shopping for bras. Oh, well. I'm now able to wear a pair of jeans that's been in my closet for nearly 5 years, which is darn kewl. I'm gonna need all new clothes here before too long, but I'm prolly going to haunt the thrift stores because, as I'm still losing, I don't want to drop a small fortune on clothes that I won't be wearing for more than a few months at the outside.

Anyway. Life is mostly going okay. It's Friday, the sun is shining and I'm above ground. That always is a good sign. :-)

Gah!

My head still hurts from the second bout with migraines this month. I had one earlier this month that lasted for three days. *sigh* So, I'm going to see my doctor on Friday to see if we can determine a course of action to prevent them and, if not, a treatment option that will not tear my stomach up the way that ibuprofen has been. I'm not sure, but the insomnia may be related. Which is the cause, and which is the effect remains to be seen.

I had a really bad, off-program week this past week. I ended up with a 1.2# gain this morning, which is good in a way because it showed me that the week I just went through was filled with things that I should not be doing. It might take me a day or so to get back on track because of this gorram headache, but I'm doing my best. Frankly, I think if a person can honestly say that s/he is doing his/her best, then that is all anyone can ask.

So, much with the water and with the counting of the Points. Staying on Program is about all I can control right now, so I'm gonna do my damndest to do so.

So there.

Yeah, it's been a while...

I've not written in a while. I don't think anyone was really reading it, anyway, and I've mostly been writing in my paper journal. At least writing in my paper journal doesn't spark any kind of drama. *sigh* I really don't know where to begin with the meat of my life, so I'll just stick to writing about WW and my weightloss for this update. Maybe I can ease back in to blogging, or maybe I'll just give it up altogether. I don't know.

Anyway.

As of my WI yesterday, I've lost a total of 39#. I'd hoped to be down a full 40#, but I know that will happen. I've been realizing how poorly most of my clothes are fitting me these days and really must arrange to get a few new things. I hesitate to go too overboard because I am still losing and I don't want to drop a ton of cash on clothes that I only hope to be able wear for a couple of months. The item of clothing that I am probably in the most dire need of replacing is my bras. Sheesh! I told S. that I wanted to splurge some on my bras & panties - even if I won't be able to wear them for a long time. I figure that building confidence should start with what I wear closest to me. Maybe that only makes sense to me, and that is okay.

We've been experiencing some problems with our membership @ the Y. For some reason, our membership dues didn't get deducted from our bank account at the end of May. So, I've been hesitant to go to the gym because I'm afraid they'll turn me away into the night. :-) We've got a call in to the guy in charge, and S. said that the Y had called as he was leaving the house this AM, so he didn't get a chance to listen to the message. Hopefully, it is all straightened out, so we can get back into the gym. I lose so much easier when I'm sticking to WW and exercise. I've been walking, but it's just not the same, psychologically, as going to the gym. Again, maybe that makes sense only to me, but that's OK.

Mucho stress is going on in my life and I'm really trying not to eat the house because of it. One of these days, I'll get that emotional eating under control...